Friday 28th September 2012

I loved you but what good did it do me.

What is worse than having your heart rejected? Nothing is worse.

Thursday 27th September 2012

This cannot be happening! Is it not enough that he loved you more despite the fact that you were only together for what could have only been a few months. He loved you more even though you have two children fathered by a  friend of his. Now you choose to switch to the same University as me, do you really have to rub the salt in my wounds so deeply. He chose you when I was the one who was there for him when his grandfather died, but me by his side meant nothing. He left me and fell in love with you. Is that not enough already and now I have to see you almost every day!

Will my heart ever heal?

Sunday 23rd September 2012

It is on cold nights like these that I wish I still had you here to keep me warm…

…but I do not.

Wednesday 19th September 2012

Another painful tattoo removal laser treatment at Skin clinic. I have gotten use to the procedure carried out by my usual nurse Zoe that I could not bring my self to finish today’s which was carried out by someone new. Normally the few pink areas are completed first and then the black, starting from the top of my arm down to the wrist, keeping the most painful section til last. So, just as she finished the black, i assumed the treatment was over and I let out a sigh of relief. Then as she grabbed hold of the laser and my arm again I froze in shock fearing the pain of what was about to come. The poor nurse allowed me to have an extra treatment so I could complete the rest of the tattoo at the end of my already purchased treatments because I was so scared. Even with the Emla cream it still hurts like a bitch and my heart pounds like mad every single time 😥

Tuesday 18th September 2012

Thank you Yuki for a great day at The Jolly Good Pud cupcake workshop in Lutterworth. It was so much more fun than I expected. Prior to arrival I did wonder how it could possibly take 4 hours to decorate 12 cakes but unbelievably it actually did! Yuki and I were the last ones to finish and we still ended up rushing our last few 😦  Although, even if I do say so my self, the cakes did look pretty good and yes I am rather proud >.<               

I definitely learnt a trick or two and cannot wait to put it into practice at home. The workshop has really inspired me for future cake decorating designs. I would recommend it to anybody, great fun. Also, afternoon tea was also provided with the 9-1 pm workshop with yummy scones, sandwiches and cakes.

Monday 17th September 2012

Shrek The Musical at the Theatre Royal in London was amazing. When we got to the doors our seats were upgraded from row X seats 12 and 13 to L25 and 26, which were stall seats right bang in the middle at the front. The view was perfect, every emotion on each characters face was able to be seen so clearly, it was fantastic. Admittedly, the plot did start off slow but it was definitely worth sitting through as the further into the play, the better it got. Peering over the shoulders of the women flicking through the production brochure sitting in front of us, we realised that we had actually been watching Carley Stenson who plays Steph in Hollyoaks (princess fiona), Richard Blackwood (donkey), and Neil McDermott who plays Ryan in Eastenders (lord farquaad). Carley Stenson was so so funny to watch, I am so glad I have seen it, she made the play so good to watch. Woo what a night!

The Hope and Greenwood strawberry flavoured candy floss was an excellent idea for a munch at the theatre. Great recommendation Anna (^.^)

Sunday 16th September 2012

It was so sad to see the state of my brother today. It was so obvious he had spent the whole night crying. As he swung open the restaurant door to start his shift today I did not expect to see him as I did. His face looked so tired from exhaustion of a sleepless night and eyes so puffy from the tears he shed. It pained me to see him this way and yet he still strong and braved it through, trying not to let it affect him. I believe my brother is not so tough as he may want people to think, he is a softy at heart and I could tell that he had had it broken. I know this as I cried the same tears not long ago and the pains of  heartbreak stay with me still. Stay strong brother xXx

Saturday 15th September 2012

For the first time in over a decade, I decided to try my luck with the lottery. Deciding on which numbers to choose was a task and a half but I finally decided on:
1 (my birthday)
8 (my origins lucky number)
12 (my favorite time of yr…
25 …xmas)
38 (another favourite of mine are shoes so this is my shoe size)
48 (and finally, my year of birth with digits reversed)
I thought it only right that the numbers should hold sentimental values behind them.

So, they were my numbers and todays numbers were….
….my ticket did not even match a single number. Well, what can i say…roll on wednesdays lotto! >_<

Friday 14th September 2012

Various kinds of nightmares have been haunting me in my sleep lately. I hope to not have another tonight. In my dreams is the only place I do not have to face reality and the pain that comes along with it. Please bless me with sweet peaceful sleeps.

Animal Cruelty: help injured animals

For the first time I found it necessary to inform someone of an event I witnessed involving cruelty to animals. I was on my cigarette break out the back at work when I heard a light rustling from the bins. It was a cute little grey squirrel with the most beautiful fluffy tail. The poor soul was searching for food and I guess he had satisfied his hunger as after a while he leapt from the bins and scurried off when all of a sudden a car which was clearly driving too fast for a public area had just put an end to the poor squirrels life. The driver did not feel the need to slow down or to even stop. I was completely shocked as it was right in his path and if he were to claim to have not seen the squirrel, then he should not have been behind the wheel. After being tossed around the front wheel of the car, the squirrel was still twitching helplessly on the concrete ground. I struggled for a while to think of what to do. After a few attempts trying to get hold of the RSPCA, I finally found a valid contact number. Unfortunately, by the time I had managed to get through to someone it was too late, the poor thing had passed away and there was nothing that could be done. God bless his soul.

So, my plea is this, if you come across an injured animal please help them by contacting the RSPCA on 0300 1234 999. You could save their life.